HERMETIC - ESOTERIC - MYSTICAL PHILOSOPHIES
Kabbalah-Emanations from the Source: part 6
By Robert Green
Painting by Clare Goodwin
This week we will examine the nature of
memory and its important role in the development of the “self”.
We have said that Absolute Being is perfect and therefore can have no
purpose. But on the other hand, mankind, or self, does have purpose. And
this purpose is the same for all, which is “realized unification” with
Absolute Being. But how do we accomplish this “realized unification”? It
is accomplished thru individual experience in life, and life is
consciousness infolded upon itself, creating mind.
Without the reflective quality of the mind there could be no self, at all.
As self descends in a straight line of focus from its source it begins to
bend and then it encircles itself. This action causes it to be pulled into
the center of its orbit, where it enfolds upon itself, creating a point of
reflection. By bending, circling, and enfolding upon itself, mind sees and
knows itself. If mind could not see itself thru the reflection of the
opposites, caused by the enfolding, then there would not be any
self-experience and self would not exist because the subject could not
have arisen. The opposites that we are referring to are object-subject.
Let us investigate the nature of self more deeply. Self is the center of
consciousness. It is a center of experienced feelings, memories, and
beliefs. SELF IS NOT ONLY A CENTER OF FEELING-KNOWING, BUT MORE EXACTLY IT
“IS” FEELING-KNOWING. Therefore, we will define self as
“total-feeling-knowing”. By total, we mean that it makes no difference if
at this very moment, we feel nothing, or we know nothing and are not in
the least aware of our self, because self is “multi-dimensional” and self
is still there as the “unconscious mind” prior to our realization of any
feelings or experiences. However, when anything rises to the consciousness
from the unconsciousness, then self must be there; for we cannot be
conscious of anything without the awareness of self.
I mentioned that self is multi-dimensional. By this I mean that self
participates in all the planes of consciousness, simultaneously. It is
like a great tree with its roots going deep down into various levels and
sub levels of the soil and spreading throughout, with its trunk, limbs,
branches, and leaves reaching high and spreading throughout the atmosphere
above. And this great tree participates in its total environment.
Now we have stated that man’s purpose is to experience self and to bring
self to conscious realization in that event called life. But what do we
mean by “experience”? Are not our experiences but memories? And we have
stated in other lessons that memory is dependent upon time. But is this
actually true? If self were multi-dimensional, then would not memory have
to be multi-dimensional, also?
Let us investigate memory thru our own experiences and see what we can
discover. You will be surprised when I tell you that memory is open-ended
and is always changing as our concepts change. The original happening of
an event is always experienced from different perspectives from all those
that are involved or as spectators in the event. All policemen and
investigators of events recognize that what is experienced by participants
and spectators, alike, is an “individual and original” happening. Each one
brings to the experience his own focus, background, temperament, beliefs,
and a thousand other things of all different colors and reasons…so that
the event/experience that is shared by all is still primarily original to
The moment that an experience happens it begins to change as it is
filtered thru all those ingredients, and furthermore, it continues to
change with each succeeding experience, as self learns, and beliefs
We are used to a “time framework” with a beginning and an ending and we
remember and recall events from the past in this manner, but did you know
that the memory of these events has changed from the original experience
and that as “time passes” we have different impressions and understandings
of the experience? This happens so that we can better resolve life issues
in the “future” as we learn thru events and experiences. It is evolution.
Within the no-self (our unconscious self) are myriads of past selves,
potential selves, and future selves. They are but “ONE SELF”, yet exist as
individual personalities. Know also, that the self has no concept of time
and operates and exists thru these myriads of memories of past lives,
potential, and future lives in a multi-dimensional framework of
This information is probably new to you, for it is not well known even to
sages and mystics, but explore it for yourself in your daily meditation
Now, what I told you about how your recollection of events and experiences
were constantly changing as you gain new knowledge and concepts, applies
also to your past self’s memories of their previous lives. Their
individual concepts are also continuously changing from new experiences
and knowledge from the present and the potential self. And ALL contribute
to the whole self.
We can only operate from our sphere of material life with the linear
functioning of the brain, with the illusion, or can I say, the pretension
of closed finished events. Open, ever changing experiences and events
would seem to be chaotic and would probably drive us insane; so
experiences are seen as closed, finished events, and the changing nature
of our memory, concepts, precepts, ideas, and so on, happens unconsciously
and below the surface of our awareness.
The memory left alone and not structured in a framework of time, will
shimmer and shake, take other forms, and transform itself before your
inner vision like the clouds of the sky, and the focus of other events of
your life will also shimmer and change. Edges, corners, and reflections
will appear, however, perhaps superimposed upon memories that you
recognize as belonging to this present life. Have you ever experienced
Simultaneously, each of our past, potential, and future selves dwells in
their own individual way, but we form our past lives now in this life just
as surely as we form our present and future ones now, also.
In quite moments when pondering, you might remember an experience from
this life, but there may be a strange feeling to it…a sort of déjà
vu…where something does not seem to fit into the timeframe in which the
experience belongs. This is a case where the life event is tinged with the
memory of a past one…where a past or future life sheds its “mold” upon the
present one. There is a “floating” quality about some of the dimensions of
memory and these deals with our “destinies”.
I have given you much information to absorb in this lesson, and I hope it
was not too abstract to understand. It is difficult, that is for sure, but
I hope that you will ask me questions if you are having trouble applying
it to your own self-experiences.
I have no exercise for this session because I want you to ponder this
lesson all week and investigate your own memories within your meditation
period each day.
Also, I would like to hear from each of you, about what your experiences
have been with the prior exercises…so we can adjust and give you those
that will individually bring about the desired results.
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